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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

[[feeling funny]]

it kinda sucked having to wake up at 6 today and go through the usual tuesday school routine. i mean after 2 weeks of no lessons..sigh..
got back champagne's paper today..just passed..(congrats to xt though!!65!way to go u brilliant crapper!)..and this was like the paper i did the best on..i can't wait to see what i got for dio and whitby.

the entire day today..i've been feeling kind of..disconnected. i just didn't feel like myself today. thing's are changing around me.with me. and i don't know how to deal with it. i was talking to xt about this thing i'm not sure about anymore. and i don't know what to do! i think i shall just take my usual inactive approach and wait it out. well i kinda have been waiting it out for quite long already..but now..i can't seem to be able to muster up enough energy to care.oh wells.
argh.i'm not making any sense.as mr leong once wrote:jillian, you have no real logical reasoning..or something along those lines anyway..

was talking to nic today and she said something that struck me. i've always felt that my life was quite uneventful,boring,mundane. really. i never thought it was anything special. i mean i always hear of people doing great things..and i'm like..wow i could never do that...ya anyway i was telling nic this cos i was feeling especially boring today..and she just told me to look at one of my previous blog entries..and that i have church, my ij friends, church friends, school, hockey and basically that there are other people's lives which are much less eventful than mine. then i started thinking..of all the stuff i've done..the night treks from thompson to woodlands..the plays i've done in church.in ij.the surprise overnight trip to east coast..the amazing family reunions i've had. that time i tripped down the aisle while flowergirl-ing for my cousin[with my 2 front teeth missing, no less]..that time we had to sneak past the sleeping fathers and climb over the church gates to sneak out at 4am so we could walk to pierce...the yep trip...my crazy family and friends...well...i guess my life can't be labelled uneventful..and i'm really thankful for that :) and grateful to nic for helping me realise that:)

geri just called me..i love old friends :) no matter how irritating they can be(i still love u!)...its cos they know you so well...i barely have to say anything and she'd already summed up everything for me..i'm really lucky to have her for these past 10?11? years...man it's been long..and even though we're in different schools now..THANK GOD she's always calling me and nagging for not calling her...cos this is one friendship i really really would not want to let go of!

i think i wanna go lie down or something now..my stomach's killing me..i've got the sharp shooting gastric like pains..and my throat hurts too! oh why didn't i take xt's advice and just shut up!(although her reason was so she didnt have to hear my voice). must try and survive school and training tomorrow :s

[walking with you]*|9:06 PM|